I love lists, always have always will. They serve a purpose. Sometimes they rank importance, sometimes they are reminders, others are for reflection. I made a list this morning just because I wanted to.
Things I like:
- Good coffee
- Harry Potter
- walking on the beach
- Being a mother
Things I don’t like:
- Finishing Harry Potter (What will I do???)
- Feeling inadequate
- Being a mother
Ill be honest, I have no idea what God is doing in my life. I know He is challenging me, but I wish He would stop (can I get an amen) God has given us passions to pursue, if we are lucky we learn how to take these passions and invest them in God’s kingdom. God also gives us challenges or hurdles to overcome and reveal His glory. In the seasons of doubt, mistrust, or confusion we have to constantly remind ourselves that He is working for the greater good. This life is busy & sometimes a very lonely place, but I have to choose to see the beauty that God has blessed me with. He is working for the greater good in me.
Homesick – the distress of impairment caused by an actual or anticipated separation from home. In the process of grieving for my grandmother many emotions that were expected came. The emotion of loss but joy for knowing that she’s with Jesus. One emotion I was not anticipating that hit me suddenly during worship at my church was the feeling of being homesick for heaven. Don’t get me wrong being a follower of Christ I have always been excited about being in Christ’s presence, but this emotion was different. It was a beautiful reminder that this broken world is not my home. No wonder I struggle so much this side of heaven. I think that the busyness and responsibilities that I have, have become a priority. Being able to slow down this past week with spring break has been rewarding to my soul. As I write this (during my pastor’s sermon) he stated “To stay focused on the goal.” James reminds us to be patient until the Lords coming. So what’s my goal – to bring God glory in my daily living. I must love the one God has placed in my life. I am to encourage the downhearted, to be a loving and supportive wife, to teach and lead my children to live a holy life in a broken world.I love my family and friends – but I anxiously await for my home. Jesus, come quickly.